Century Club…

HELLO all my pretties.  It’s been a minute since I posted, but I wanted to give everyone a teeny tiny update on GallyGate and my weight loss. 

First things first, GallyGate.  Today was my first day officially back to work. I will admit even thought I was out for two weeks, I was ready and well won’t. I enjoyed my time away from work.  It gave me time to spend with some people I care about dearly, so I will miss that extra time. I came back to 537 emails, which is not the welcoming I had in mind, but hey. I can tell a complete night and day difference in the way I feel.  It’s amazing what a useless little organ like your gallbladder, can do to you.  PIMP WAS DOWN.  But I’m back and more awesome than ever! Everything I eat now doesn’t make me sick or want to die. So that’s a plus.

Speaking of eating, everyone kept telling me, be careful of what you eat, it will make you have the “urgency” to go.  I’m like OH LAWD that is all I need is to be afraid of eating.  Which I kind of already am because of my bypass, now I have to worry about crapping myself too!? Luckily, and super mega knock on wood here, I haven’t had ANY of those problems, and to be honest, I purposely tested it while I was out. NO JOKE.  I ate fried foods, and basically things HIGH in fat to see how my body would react.  The only thing I had trouble with, was fries and hash browns. It’s funny because before galldy I was getting a sense of me not being able to do those foods anymore because when I did eat them I felt not so good.  Now when I eat them I REALLY don’t feel good. And honestly the only food that makes me feel like I have to go.  If I do eat anything that may not agree I don’t have urgency per se, but I do have to use the rest room about 30 min afterwards.  So yeah I’m learning.  And no more fries and hash browns unless I’m home safely lol

But I shouldn’t have too many of those moments due to being a bypass patient I’m suppose to be watching everything I eat anyway. So whoop! Speaking of eating; I have been on a major cereal kick lately.  I mean I want cereal ALL THE FREAKIN’ TIME! I’m actually eating some right now, here at my desk at work! Which let’s be honest cereal is a food that is good anytime. Which is ok, but it doesn’t have a lot of protein, so I gotta watch that, and make sure I’m not eating anything with “empty” calories. 

Now on to an update on my weight loss.  I AM OFFICALLY 100 pounds down! That’s right I am apart of the Century Club.  I am so happy.  During this whole journey I thought, if I could just get to 100 pounds lost, I will be happy and have no complaints.  And I have done it, and it feels awesome! (Cue: I’m so excited, and once again you’re welcome for the mind terrorism)
There is one thing however, now that I have to focus on more than ever, and that is my workout routine.  In the beginning I worked out everyday, EVERYDAY peeps.  I was determined.  Then I just slowly let it go.  That’s bad.  The whole entire secret to the weight loss surgery is not only what you eat but what you do to MOVE YO ASS! So I have downloaded the P90x dvd’s and I am gonna work it out at home.  I do love my dancing game so I will totally do that I know, and my Wii Fit.  But I need something to strength train, as all those other ones are mainly cardio. Which is as equally important of course.  I just want to work on some of the sagging skin I have or shrinkles as I like to call it. I know I want be able to tone all of it up, however, I feel like since I am young I have that on my side and my skin is still full of elasticity.  To be honest I don’t have a lot of sagging skin because of that and I feel blessed, as I have seen some thangs ya’ll. So I am going to take that and put it into over drive. Plus I really, really don’t want anymore surgeries, so I am trying to stay away from plastics.

So that is my rest of the year resolution, to move my ass more! I know it will give me more energy too. And I’m sure all my aches and pains I have been having lately will cease. Plus I’m still young.  I just got my life back, my confidence back, my everything back.  I don’t want to waste this wonderful opportunity that has been given to me. I feel like I have been given a second chance on life and I don’t intend to waste it. And that goes for anyone surgery or not. You have but one life to live, so live it smart.

I want to thank a couple of peeps for helping me stay on track.  You guys really care a lot about what goes into my body so I appreciate your help and support. I’ve have had some bad days lately, but you guys always lift me up not put me down and that means a lot.

 That’s all for now, Keep it realz, fresh and chillz, yo!

Emotional Baggage…

Let’s see, where do I start. I’ve got so much going on in my life as of late, I can’t keep up.  However, first thing is first Galldy-gate.

Galldy is officially gone.  People have asked me do I feel better or different.  My answer, well to be honest to an extent.  I can def tell galldy is gone, as I don’t necessarily feel sick er’time I flipping eat. So I can honestly tell that galldy is gone.  Also there is no pain.  If you recall from my previous blog Galldy was getting a bit bitchy right before G-Day.

G-day itself went WAY smoother or shall I say less painful than my last surgery.  The lady who did my IV is a freakin’ angel.  Other than the normal bruise, the IV sitch was quick and painless thanks to this awesome nurse.  I wish I remembered her name, cuz home girl would so be getting a gift card, flowers, or something from me I swear. I was still scared.  The night before I balled my eyes out scared, thanks to my special someone his comfort was awesome.  I just wish he was also there on G-day.  I was still so scared and upset I was shaking like a Chihuahua.  NO joke, the lady was like are you cold or nervous? I’m like nervous, so she gave me some happy time meds and it was all down hill from there lol.

I went in at 8:45 and was home by 2:00.  So that was awesome.  The surgery went perfectly well, and just like my bypass I didn’t have any pain, other than the new cut he made in my belly button area.  That wanted to be a little sore, which is understandable because that’s my abs, and we use our ab muscles for everything, but after about 4/5 days I was back to my ol’ crazy jumping around self.  So super mega awesome recover times. Well except for that one time I sneezed, ummm yeah… I almost hit the floor.

Next on my list, is the basis of the title of this blog.  Emotional Issues mayne.  Yesterday I ate my first piece of fried chicken.  Now it wasn’t like a 1/2 a chicken like I use to eat, yes I said 1/2 of a chicken, 4 pieces. Anyway, I ate the damn thing. And it was good, and comforting, and after I ate it, I cried, and cried, and cried. I had worked so hard for 7 months and this is what I do? Resort back to the same behavior that got me in the mess I’m in to begin with?! Really KP? Now I know it was only 1 piece because that is all I bought, but I still felt bad.  Then tonight I ate a hershey’s miniature, again, just 1. However, once the high, the comfort so to speak is over, I feel like ish, because I gave into the poison. (Cue Bell Biv Devo, oh and your welcome for the mind terrorism)

Basically what I am saying is, I need to get my eating right.  I am seeing myself resort back to my old habits and my emotional eating. As of late my life has taking some interesting turns, and I have a lot going on in my noggin, so just like before I ate, and that is what I am doing now.  The day I ate the chicken I actually ate all day just about every 30 min to an hour.  Ya’ll I’m suppose to eat every 2-4.  SO there ya go.

You know so many people think we have this surgery and BAM we are fixed. HA, yeah ok.  What they don’t realize is the doc operated on the stomach, not the brain.  He can’t change the way you think and act, that part of the process if up to you. And that goes with anyone that is a bariatric patient or just someone on a diet.

So yeah I have been an emotional mess for the last couple of days, really since my surgery.  It’s like everytime I go under the knife I come back a blubbering idiot. I just wish I didn’t have so much on my mind sometimes that triggers this behaviors.  Oh well, that’s life, but seriously contemplating seeing my shrink about it, see if that helps, or go to one of the support groups my doctor’s office has. Couldn’t hurt right?

As far as my weightloss is concerned I am 4 pounds away from the 100 pounds mark or century club.  I told my mom today I want to have a party, cuz that would be awesome.  Just get a whole bunch of 100 balloons and stuff.  WHOOP! I am also a very comfortable size Large. Both in pants and shirts, so there! To be honest I am happy with where I am at and don’t really care if I lose anymore, def don’t want to gain, but if I don’t lose anymore I’m happy.  I feel like if I get too much smaller I will just look sick.  I’m tall so I’m gonna be a little more heavier than the average woman anyway.  So I’m fine with where I’m at. I just really need to work on toning some of my muscles and see if I can’t help with some of the sagging skin I have, which isn’t bad, but could be better.  I call them Shrinkles  you guys like that don’t cha?

Well kiddos that’s it for me.  Sorry if this blog was all over the place, or just sounded like I was rambling.  I had to just let some things out. Keep it real, fresh and chill ya’ll!

*SIGH*

Yep. That’s the title; to be honest there isn’t much to say and that’s how I am feeling.  I haven’t written in a while, and seeing how this is my blog I figured I would come here and vent, and whine about my current gallbladdery issues. As of late my gallbladder has become full force.  I thought that it wouldn’t give me too much problems until the surgery, but man was I wrong.

For the past few days I have been in the most pain, and felt so sick its redonk.  And it is so unpredictable that I don’t know from way day to the next how I am feeling.  I’m bloated, nauseated, in pain in my stomach, back, abdomen, just everywhere and falling apart.  It’s starting to take a toll on me emotionally and physically. As I cry at the drop of a hat when pain starts.  Mainly because I am just so tired of being in pain.  Physically, because I am tired, I don’t sleep, and when I am suppose to be awake I feel sick. It’s just wearing me down.

My surgery has been scheduled on April 25th.  I’m beyond ready.  So yeah, to anyone I have constantly complained, whined, or cried to, I am truly sorry and I appreciate you guys being there for me and listening and nurturing me.  I really need it as I am horrible when it comes to pain, and so I immediately turn into a baby. So again and just bare with me as I only have 6 days until this thing is out!

The only thing I hope is I don’t have some of the “urgency” problems I keep hearing about.  Seriously, I don’t want none of that mess.

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In other news I took a photography class/session with a pro photographer.  It was super awesome and I learned so much.  I already feel 10 times more confident in my photography.  I can’t wait to do the wedding I have booked.  It’s gonna be awesome.

I have also started my second job at Wal-Mart.  It feels good on one hand to be back, as I miss the peeps I worked with, and then on the other I’m bummed I’m back.  Which makes me think, why in the hell did I go back? To be honest I have been thinking about this.  Sure I could use the extra money no doubt.  It will help me get rid of some of this debt and hospital bills. I think its a social thing to be honest.  I enjoy cutting up and laughing with those people.  First of all I didn’t realize how much peeps were glad to see me and have me back until I did come back. Anyway, I am a social butterfly.  I know I haven’t been in the past 10 years because of my insecurity issues with my weight and stuff, but I love people.  I will talk to much sometimes.  But I love to make people laugh and just be a big kid.  If you ask anyone about me, I’m sure the first thing they would say to describe me is a crazy outgoing fool lol So yeah I think it’s the social interaction that I am craving.  Not sure.

I also finally got me a xbox arcade stick.  It’s so much more comfortable and easier to play fighting games on a stick than the controller.  I am currently in the process of customizing it with Lego Batman. lol Yea I know, but he’s cute and awesome, and LEGOs are freakin’ awesome.  So now that I have my stick I am going to be in the lab, especially during my recovery to practice and get my game up with KOF (King of Fighters).  I would love to play in tourneys like some peeps I know do.  It looks so fun and just hype.  PERIOD. Plus I think if I really work hard at it, I can maybe win!

Well that is all for me for now. I feel like if I keep writing it will just be a whining fest about Galldy the gallbladder.  I am actually in extreme pain right now, and quite fatigued.  So I am going to lie down and see if I can’t rest.  Keep it real fresh and chill ya’ll.  I will update you guys again probably after my surgery.  Hopefully my mom won’t take pics of me being doped up like last time lol

Disney Days…

Hello my pretties! I am back from my Disney trip, well actually I came back 4 days ago, but hey it took that long to recoup! lol  I had an absolute blast! Disney also on that same note, is NO JOKE! Like I’m surprised they don’t put you through military physical training before letting you in the place.  We did so much walking, it would put my trip to Japan to shame. You know cuz that is all you do in Japan is walk.

Having said that, this trip was my first BIG trip since my surgery.  I have to tell you guys it was an amazing experience.  Getting through the airport, and sitting on the plane was wonderful. I had so much leg room that I could cross my legs (I was in coach) and I could actually put my tray down ALLLLLL the way down without it hitting my belly. As a matter of fact, I still hadroom to spare and I could actually lay my head down on it, which was awesome. Also my suitcase is lighter, because my clothes are smaller lol

Eating wasn’t a problem either on the trip.  We had the dining plan and I was always able to find something that suited my diet.  Sure there was a day or two I splurged on mac and cheese, but hey! I was born eating that stuff, and I was on vacation so kill me lol

Riding the rides was even more pleasant as I wasn’t afraid to ride them because of my size.  I could pull down the lap bar or the shoulder bar and have room to spare. Which is a NICE change from it not wanting to come down at all because of my size. So I took advantage and rode just about all the rides I could, sometimes multiple times.  The one great thing about my weight loss is that I didn’t tire out until the end of our day everyday.  Sure I was sore from all the walking and I had my aches and pains, anyone does going to Disney I’m sure, but as far as the issues I had before with my knees and back from my weight, didn’t exist.

I also wore a swim suit for the first time in almost 10 years.  I will admit, I was one hot mama. lol I felt good and didn’t feel the need to cover up or put on a shirt to swim in because I was embarrassed.  And I swam my heart out in that pool too! My grandma always called me her little mermaid because I LOVE the water.  So in a nutshell Disney World was a success and I am planning my next trip there! I can’t wait.  It was my first time going and memories were definitely made! Here is a picture of my sister in I at Disney’s Hollywood Studios.  It is one of my favorite pics out of the 900 I took lol

Now on to a short Bariatric update.

Galldy the gallbladder is still at large.  Yep that’s right I gave him a name.  It’s been giving me fits lately and one minute I am feeling fine and then the next I am in pain, fatigued, and or just flu like feeling.  It’s terrible. Just like yesterday I woke up got a shower was feeling great, was getting ready to go out with my someone special, and by the time 12 noon rolled around Galldy decided to show up and stay with me until about midnight. So half the time I was with him, I was in MEGA pain, and just fatigued and felt like a zombie.  Sorry to him, as I enjoyed the time I spent with him as always, except I was just having my attacks. UGGGHH!  April 25th is the surgery date and it can’t come soon enough.  I’m ready to have this thing OUT!

Also I have finally and I mean 100% officially FINALLY made it under the 200 pound mark.  I am now a wonderful 196 pounds!!! Can’t you guys believe it! Only 10 more pounds and I will be apart of the century club! I feel wonderful and fantastic and blessed.  I have said this many times that I actually like the way I look and feel right now, but I know I am going to lose more weight whether I like it or not, because I am in my first year and until my body levels out with the shock I have put it through, I have to accept it.  I just don’t want to get too skinny.  I just don’t feel like me getting too much smaller is gonna look good on me.  I could be wrong, but I like my curves and my little love handles.  Not the ones I had before of course lol but the ones I have now I love!

The nutritionist also officially put me on  a “REGULAR” diet, which means I can eat anything my pouch can handle lol But I don’t look at that as a green light to eat like I use to.  I am still VERY much conscious of what I put in my pouch! And I will still always and forever still need to make sure I get all my protein in everyday.  Which on my Disney trip I made easy by bringing little baggies of protein powder and bottles of ensure so I can have a great breakfast every morning.  See compromise and smart planning lol!

That’s pretty much it for now guys.  I don’t know when I will post again.  Probably in a couple of weeks when I start my surgery prep! I am actually really nervous about it because of particularly what happen last time with the IV/Needle sitch.  Plus I remember the pain, well the soreness I was in afterwards more than anything and ended up sleeping in my recliner for almost a week because I couldn’t get in and out of my bed. All in all however, I think I will do and be just fine.  So until next time, Keep it real, fresh, and chill guys!

HAPPY 6 MONTH SURGI-VERSARY!

Hell’er everyone, how’s ya mama and n’em?

Just a fair warning this might be a long one, so grab some popcorn, grab your boo, and let’s jungle boogie! *cue the trumpets*

O. M. to the big o’ G. Y’all.  It has been the LONGEST but shortest 6 months ever! So the time has come and I’m officially 6 months post op. It feels just like yesterday I was being wheeled in the O.R. scared to DEATH of what was about to happen, and how my life was about to change.  Things running through my head like, “Is this really what I want?” or “Am I really ready to make a change this drastic to save my life?” the answer was YES. 

Of course I was ready to make this change.  I have had enough of being the “FAT” girl/friend.  I had, had enough of not being able to fit comfortably in booths and plane seats.  I was tired of being embarrassed when I went somewhere because I felt like everyone was looking at me and judging me, not knowing my struggles, and not knowing the heartache and torment I was going through inside for so long. It was truly the hardest decision I have had to make in my life up this point.  However, it’s been the best decision I have ever made. 

You know I’m the type of person that wants to tell everyone I have had the surgery and that it is working for me.  I love the look on their face when they are like, “OMG Kira you look amazing how did you do it?” I quickly say, “I had gastric bypass.” and their response? “Oh ok.” That’s my favorite response, because you know, they are probably judging you and thinking, well she took the easy way out.  And sometimes it’s the sympathy “OOOOH OK” Either way I enjoy the responses as it gives me a chance to educate the public about obesity and the surgery.  I have also had a lot of people tell me I didn’t need surgery because I didn’t look that big. However, I have to quickly tell them I was pushing the big 300! They can’t believe it, but I carried my weight well. And although I thank them for the nice compliments, its one of those things that’s like, if they only knew.  Though I have found just about everyone has had SOMEONE in their family effected and has had the surgery.

It’s been an adventurous 6 months to say the least.  There has been pain, setbacks, triumphs and tears, GOOD LAWD lots and lots of tears.  We all know though that no journey like this is ever easy and not meant to be.  The doctors do their thing and then you have to do yours.  I have seen so many people slip and go back to what they use to know.  I feel so bad for them, because it is a struggle. It really is.  You start to eat things you couldn’t before and you get comfortable and slip right back into it.  But the great thing is our tool will always be there we just gotta back up to basics.  I myself right now am struggling.  I am starting with eating too fast, like before, and eat too much, like before, and although not all fast food is bad, I’m still starting to eat more of it, like before.  That just isn’t gonna work people! So back to basics I go. My life depends on it. 

And that’s just it, before my surgery my mom told me “Kira, I knew you were in trouble.” I asked her what she meant.  She told me she could tell I was just getting bigger and bigger, and I was very depressed and was a person, no one really knew.  She was right.  I had become recluse and didn’t want to go or do anything. I slept every chance I got, worked two jobs to keep myself busy, and ate! I was always embarrassed with the groceries I could put away.  3 Double cheeseburgers from McDonalds, sure no problem, Quesadilla, 2 soft tacos and a double cheesy beef burrito from Taco Bell, yep bring it on, 4 piece chicken meal with mash potatoes and rice from bojangles, yep finger lickin’ good and oh wait let’s not forget my favorite Mac and Cheese, I could put down 2 boxes of the blues box blues on that note. That’s right guys.  I was eating myself to an early grave.  And when I was eating I was happy.  It made me feel euphoric, but afterwards I felt guilty and sad because I would look back on that plate of food I just devoured, and tell myself, “Why are you doing this to yourself?” I know why….

It’s because I was unhappy, depressed, I didn’t feel WORTHY of my own self. You know because unless you LOVE yourself, how in the HELL do you expect anyone else too? I mean seriously? And that’s what happened.  After my failed relationships that started my spiral, so I thought I am not going to let anyone hurt me like that again, so I started to eat and not care.  And look where it got me.  I digress.

It’s been an amazing transformation though; even my family has noticed the happier crazier KP.  My mom said it best to them, “You guys had no idea what Kira was really going through.” And you know what? They didn’t. Even talking to my friends about how I was and what I use to do, they are like “Wow, Kira, you would have never thought you were going through that because you were always so happy and energetic.” Yeah I play the fool really well when it came to my emotions and hiding behind my smile and jokes. That’s all behind me now thank goodness. I am still outgoing and energetic and crazy lol. Now that I’m 86 pounds down I want to go everywhere and do everything! I think twice before I eat something and what I can eat.  I plan my meals more.  I always go for protein shakes and bars over candy and sweets (which to be honest now I don’t have a taste for anymore thankfully.) and just as a whole am more conscious of what I put in my fuel tank.  I am more aware an accountable for what I put in my body.  Point Blank Period!

If someone were to ask me right now would I do it all again I would tell them YES, in a heartbeat, even knowing all I know now, I would do it again.  I have never been this healthy, even when I was younger I just don’t think I was.

So what is next for good ol’ KP? Well hopefully lots of things.  Of course as I have mentioned this weekend is Disney World weekend vacation, well the start of it.  I am super excited.  I know when I went to NYC my surgery told on me then, because I had so much energy and walked for 8 hours and wasn’t even tired until the 9^th hour when I got back on that bus lol. I never gave out of breathe and going into shops and moving around was so much easier too.

So number 1. Looking forward to more traveling experiences.

My love/social life so to speak has had a pick me up too.  Yeah, yeah calm down! It just happened.  I wasn’t looking for it, but they say that’s the best kind right? Anyway, it’s nothing official or, anything like that, but it’s nice to enjoy someone else’s company who shares your passion and energy, and not have it feel forced.  Also, it has been a new experience for me a whole, as I get looks and comments all the time from the opposite sex.  It’s flattering, but at the same time something I am not use to.  I normally just smile or giggle it off. But it is sweet, so if anyone reading this has given me one, thank you, it was really sweet and sometimes freakin’ hilarious and very flattering.  Maybe one day I will get use to all these nice compliments.

So that brings me to number 2.  I’m a Capricorn, so I have a lot of passion, and loyal.  So my second thing is I’m looking forward to loving and caring for  others like I know I can, because I now love myself enough to love and care for someone else.

As mentioned previously, I thought about getting a second job again, to help with my finances and more less ease my mind than anything. So that is coming along nicely, and to be honest as quickly as I am shrinking I need funds for some decent clothes.  I already tried the Good Will and I just didn’t find anything believe it or not.  SO, I will be doing the second job thing again.  There are some pros and cons to that, but it will only be temporary (hopefully), I know me.  I’ll stay and stay lol but the extra money would be nice and it will help me build up some savings. My plans in the next year are to move closer intoWilsonwhere I work.  And I need some frog skins to do that. Also I’m expensive and have a lot of toys I want to buy lol

SOO… number 3. In the words of Kanye West “Wait till I get my money right….”

Also today on my wonderful day of Surgi-versary, I found out I have gallstones.  Now, this is not an uncommon thing with weight loss patients, as the weight loss is so rapid, it causes the gallbladder to act out.  So, I go back Wednesday to discuss surgery with my surgeon who also did my bypass.  I haven’t really had any symptoms other than feeling like I have the flu.  To be honest I’m scared to death of another surgery, not because of the surgery itself, but because of the needles.  Y’all, no joke I hate needles.  I can give blood at my doctor’s office just fine, as the lady is AWESOME at it, but when it comes to putting IV’s in me and stuff, ummm NO.  They did a number on me last time, and needless to say I’ve been traumatized.  I even broke down and just COMPLETELY boo hoo’d in my nutritionist office.  So yeah, I gotta get it together before this thing happens. I know I will do fine though.  I did very well with my surgery, so I have no doubt I’ll do fine with this one.  I’ll keep you guys posted of course. 

And now finally the stats of my progress did you think I was going to forget to tell you? I know I talk about it in my other blogs, but I think I need to break it on down folks. SO HERE WE GO!

STARTING STATS

WEIGHT: 286       SHIRT SIZE: 3X

PANTS SIZE: 24     SHOE SIZE: 10

 

CURRENT STATS

WEIGHT: 200   SHIRT SIZE: LARGE  

PANTS SIZE: 16   SHOE SIZE: 8.5

I want to thank everyone again who has stuck by me and supported me.  It really means a lot and I can’t wait for what the next 6 months hold for me.  Just looking at my before and after pics I am just blown away as I don’t recognize the person I use to be.  It’s just weird.  So that’s all for now until my next adventure, which I’m sure will be soon with the stones sitch lol Keep it real, fresh and chill you guys!

Sweet 16…

OH MAN can you guys feel it!?  MARCH MADNESS!!! *cue the crowd*

This is by far one of my most favorite times of the year.  I love college hoops, and love it even more when March comes a knockin’. The hype is insane.  Now, I love my team as much as the next, but I’m not really into talking a lot of trash to peeps.  I just love the game. Yeah I have been known to trash talk before, but to be honest it was boring and just took the magic away.  I hate when my team loses, let’s not get it twisted lol But I also am happy to give credit where credit is due! Case in point the ACC tourney this past weekend with UNC vs FSU.  UNC is my team! And they have won that tourney 17 times! Now FSU, has only been to the tourney 2 times, and the first time they lost, but they came back this time and demanded that win! And you know what? They got it.  Kudos to them. They played one HECK of a basketball game fo sho, and deserved that win.  They fought for it. So again credit where credit is due. So in conclusion, yes I will be keeping up with my bracket for fun, and just hope that my team can pull one out this year and get a win at the NCAA Championship.  Good Luck boys!

Disney is upon us my friends.  I am so excited.  This is my first year going to theLand ofMagic, so I know there will be tears when I step off that tram and see Cinderella’s castle.  Don’t lie, you have done it too, and continue to do it! (haha) I am even more excited because this will be my first really BIG trip since my weight loss.  Sure I went to NYC, but that was on a bus, anyone can ride a bus! I’m taking a plane this time.  Last time I took a plane I was barely able to buckle my belt and sitting beside someone was well “tight” and putting down my tray was def a no go.  So yeah, I’m actually pretty excited to see what’s crackin’ for me this time around.  I will def do a post when I get back to tell you all about my experience with that.  In the mean time I still need to get memory cards for my camera.  I went shopping and got me some pant-teh-lones, and a swim suit.  First one in almost gosh 8 years, I don’t even remember.  And ya’ll I look good lol maybe I will post a pic lol. So yeah I’m excited about this trip for various reasons, but even more so to see how 86 pounds gone will serve me at a place where you do nothing but walk! Stay tuned for that blog lol

Weight update: Well I went to the doctor yesterday to get an ultrasound to see if I have stones.  Nothing was told to me; however, I am to go back next week to find out.  I don’t think I have stones, but I do think something is off with my gallbladder.  When I eat certain foods, normally a little fattier than I need or greasy, that’s when I feel it, and I’m miserable.  I mean just miserable.  And sick, OMG don’t even get me started. So I think that sucker is gonna have to come out. I don’t want to have another surgery, trust me.  That’s the last thing I want, but I don’t need that thing anyway lol I have been more bloated lately so I have gained like 2 pounds back.  Which I don’t even look at as gaining back as it is just gas probably, not probably, cuz it is. Other than that, I am well and everything is good.  I really need to start working out, as I was going it everyday in the beginning and kind of quit. So I really need to get back on track, especially strength training for my arms.  Seriously, if I wave at someone they are gonna cue the bat signal lol at least that is how I feel. 

I am however, and official size 16! Some things are a little snug, but for the most part, perfect fit J.  It feels so good, I can’t remember the last time I was a 16.  I can remember 18, but not 16.  My goal is to be a size 12, but as always if I never lose another pound, I am a happy camper. I feel good, I look good.  I have a nice hour glass shape that I didn’t realize that was there before.  I gotta lil junk in my trunk so my jeans look poppin’ lol.  So yeah, I’m happy with everything thus far. 

Money: OH the story of my life.  Money. I decided it was time to yet again get a second job.  Most of you that know me well, know that I have always since high school worked 2 jobs, sometimes 3! It’s what I do. I’m a busy body and to be honest sitting at home is fun, but I need to get out and do something.  So what did I do? Work. I’ve never been shy about working or doing what I need to do to pay the bills.  My current medical bills aren’t a lot thanks to my insurance, but they aren’t cheap, and I have them.  Heck any bariatric patient knows that just for vitamins every month we are known to spend up to $60 on all the supplements and tablets we need, and then add protein on to that if you need a refill and just like I did 2 weeks ago I spend $140 on things I need to keep everything on track.  OH yeah $140.  That was more protein, vitamins, some special food I can only get at my Dr. office.  Now granted a lot of that stuff will last for months, but the vitamins can cost me about $40 a month, so not too bad.  However, I digress.  I have also been living on my own since June, and it was rough at first as I didn’t have a second job or the job I have now, so at this point I’m playing catch up with some of my things.  I hate feeling like this, but we have all gone through it, so I know I am not alone.  But I am ready to set things straight and start having savings and money in my accounts again.  I hate not feeling prepared for what life hands me because I don’t have reserves.  I guess that is why I have always had a second job; it made me feel like I was ready for anything.  Anywho, so I have that going, and if I get it, I’m curious again to see how it will do since my surgery.  As before I hardly ate or I ate on the run, and now I can’t do that. 

Someone in the Bariatric TV forum I frequent and post on said it best.  “KP what you use to do before in your old life, will no longer work in your new.” OMG! This is so true! I have to always be drinking water, and make sure I eat on a schedule of sorts, get all the protein I need, because if I don’t. I WILL fall out! I’m still trying to get use to that, so yeah that part isn’t perfect, but I’m only 6 months out, so I have a long way to go in my journey.

Speaking of 6 months.  I will be 6 months next Monday the 19^th.  Please come back for the Celebration blog of my Surgi-versary.  My goal is to be under 200 pounds by then, so I better get crackin’ lol

That’s all from me for now.  I shall keep the masses updated on all things KP coming up.  I am only ¼ through my two year healing and losing process of this journey.  That’s right it takes about 2 years for your body to LEVEL itself and for you to find out what your body is going to do, and if plastic is needed or not. I’m praying that I DO NOT, if anything my arms, but I’m gonna try to combat that with strength training.  The good thing is I have youth on my side still so my skin will tighten some, so that’s awesome. I have noticed it already doing that. 

OK friends, until next time. Tune in to the same Bat time, same Bat channel! Keep it real, fresh, and chill.

Don’t Throw Stones…

What’s up my fine friends? I hope everyone made it through the leap day ok.  LOL AH and now March. Where spring springs, and the time also springs forward.  That’s the part I hate actually. Anytime the universe wants to take an hour of my sleep away from me I get violent! Thanks Ben Franklin you’re awesome! Couldn’t just stop with electricity, oooohhh no you had to touch time too! Forget you and kite you rode in on bro! I digress.

So things are poppin’ and snappin’ in the world of KP.  The scale is moving again, slowly, but none the less the freakin’ thing is moving. Lol Which us WLS’ers love, even though we know better we still need movement, because in our first year, it’s all about the SCALE! Speaking of scale, time for an update!

It has finally happened.  My scale has reached a milestone, a pinnacle if you will. It finally read 200 lbs even!!  Not 200.5 or 200.3, 200.0!!!! I couldn’t believe it once again.  Finally I had reached a point again that I never thought I would.  It felt good.  And for proof I got a happy snappy photo! (love my piggies? Lol)  SO only 14 more pounds and I’m having a century party! You are all invited. WHOOP!

 

I have also started to move into a new category of size in my clothes.  I am down to a size 16 in pants and Large in shirts.  Although some larges just like some extra larges were a little tight depending on make and model, the same is true for the larges.  But when you have to start rolling your pants for a better fit, its time to give em up lol so I will be shopping before my Disney Trip!

ON the flipside of things for the past could of weeks I have been through some bariatric traumas.  I have felt extremely fatigued, dizzy, light headed, nauseated, just basically falling apart. So I went to the doctor to make sure everything was copasetic and they hit me with the “G” word.  That’s right gallstones!  NOOOOOOOO.  I explained to them I didn’t have any pain associated with my gallbladder, or when I ate, other than I felt nauseated.  However, none the less they are going to check me out and we will know for sure hopefully by months end.  As of right now and for the first time in a week I have felt fantastic.  I hope it continues because I have been one sick puppy.  So yeah, my gallbladder not need to throw stones at a sistah..

I have talked to several peeps with gallbladder issues and I have had some that said they never knew they had gallstones because they never showed any signs or had pain, then on the other side of that I have had people tell me it was the worst thing they have ever felt.  So, I intend on catching this bad boy early!

On to other things and completely random and off topic, I have always considered myself a gamer.  I love it.  The adrenaline you get when you play, and just the sheer awesomeness of it.  Well over the years I’ve tried to keep up my gaming sitch, but with life in the way sometimes it was hard to do that. However, I met someone recently that has rekindled my love for games, and made me realize just how much I love and enjoy it. Especially the all nighters I use to pull trying to beat a game, while being surrounded by snacks and drinks cuz you know you can’t go to far when you are playing these games lol This person knows who they are and I want to thank them for bringing this “sexy” back into my life. I have learned some things about gaming I didn’t know, like how there are these HUGE tournaments I had no idea existed that are so hype. And just the gaming community is just awesome and they really welcome anyone, spectator or competitor.  I love that.  So expect for Pookie to game it up after Disney.  I’m gonna make it rain, and just buy some games and consoles up that have been missing from my collection lol

So in a nutshell, I can’t wait to see the gaming shenanigans we get into.  I’m so pumped.

Well that’s all from me for now. Progress has been made and I’m so excited to see what the future holds for my weight loss.  To be honest where I am at now I’m pretty happy, but I know I will lose more until things level out, it’s just how it is. However, I have always said I’m not looking to be skinty.  To be honest I think I’m skinny enough now. I like the way I look and feel now, but I always wanted to be healthy.  I know my BMI is right at 25 which is in normal range, so I just need to step up my work out routine to tone my musk-les. I am totes appreciative of all the support and love I’ve gotten from the WLS community and of course my family, friends, and co-workers.  Thanks again for sharing my journey even with all it’s up and DOWNS with me.